Three Poems By Michael Brooks Hope Is the Rope You Hang Yourself With So I amble up Deansgate past Alfresco dining on rain-stained Manchester paving stones Get lost in the Northern Quarter same as ever In music shops peruse Gibsons and Fenders that I will never ever own. Sift through warehouses of print Imagine my own name languishing somewhere In between sections A and C. Have a coffee in the same chain house Pretty waitress stopped meeting my gaze many weeks ago. Try on clothes in designer boutiques The kind with only one satin shirt hanging amidst Splendid pretension on a rack it calls its own Always rush out empty-handed Never meet the doorman’s eye on leaving. Crossing Albert Square, sit and watch a weekend wedding See them pose for photos, all excited and vibrant But I can only see the cigarette butts that the bride Rearranges across the cobbles with the train of her dress. Sitting in some dirty bar, writing words and reading better Hovering in some futile vacuum Waiting for fresh cards to be dealt my way. Coming toward me across the menagerie of Piccadilly Gardens I saw a shadow of a man, unkempt and drunk Aged well beyond his natural progression He eyed me and I looked away, seeing in him A vision of my future that waits patiently round The corner for me to catch up. The thought was so distressing that I turned And quickly headed for home. Plane in the Sky Staring up, a solitary plane Tear a stitch across the canvas of the sky A plume of white like a swan ripple on a lake Who’s onboard and on what course? Journeys abroad, journeys homeward Business trips, holidays in the sun The sky is all theirs, a clear path ahead Thrown like a slingshot up miles high Such genius of man to engineer such flight From here though, so effortless and serene As the plane floats on across the clear blue sky. Snapshot of a City Dislocate iron bridges
prop up pondering people as they survey paper cups that
struggle on along the gutter – blonde waitresses steal cigs
in back alleys composing bitchy soliloquies and erotic
sonnets on phones – cars progress like cancer cells on a
torrent of false destination and monotone routine, so
predicable their path along cobbles and asphalt, drivers
caged inside with revs per minute intricately correlated to
heartbeats – blood shoots round their soft machinery, their
muscled hydraulics and nervous systems fragile with the
winter chill – the most exhilarating moment of their day is the
double-decker passing the traffic lights mere inches from
their face, they feel the rare thrill of being within a
footstep of death, they could almost reach out and grab it –
daily masturbation now a modicum of pleasure, an extrication
of lust, an expulsion of fluid desire that would render us
disasters waiting to happen were the ritual not religiously
adhered to – policeman on the beat no hope in his face,
follows in his trail a vapour of snide rumours and innuendo,
dirty aspersions levelled on him – pedestrians texting into phones are cruise missiles
burrowing their way through the invisible smog – and every
time I ignore a homeless man selling magazines and praying
for a change a little piece of my soul goes through its
death throes inside me – a troupe of amateur dramatics play
out some kerbside Shakespeare, harassing shoppers with
high-fluting lexicon and displaced narratives – these
streets are eroding more and more and still we wade our way
through to reach the half-price summer sales – the banks and building societies and financial institutions
play with our lives until market’s end, growing day by day,
swallowing up everything we hold dear like a tumour – the
other day I stood examining graffiti on the side of a
municipal building, deciphering the illegible tags and crude
sloganeering, wondering if there was any way I could profit
from this venture until the light fell and I had to go home
– and I wish I could get my hands on some medicinal
substances to retreat into numbness and never come back – I wish I could administer an intravenous injection of hard
drugs into the veins of the city, see the walls collapse
over time, the tensile strength of steel-framed structures
OD and fall to pieces, the lifeblood of the city, the
resilience and pride of the people contaminated and in need
of thorough cleansing – office workers are wired on espresso
and microwavable panini’s, accountants are living their
fucked-up childhood fantasies, graphic designers and
advertising execs are conjuring up new ways to transform
their own graffiti tags and exotic slogans into banknotes
and glossy reality – an amateur band rehearses over the
internet, full of attitude and ideas, they will part ways
acrimoniously before a rough collection of demos can find
their way to anyone’s ears – two lovers are kissing on stone steps as the rain falls upon
their shoulders, nothing else matters around them as far as
the imagination can stretch, as long as the very concept of
time and the false promise of riches and success,
recognition and respect, because between the two of them,
from the ruins of the city, they have found something
infinitely better.
Michael Brooks,
an aspiring writer from Manchester |